New Year's Eve 2014

Bye 2014 
I cannot believe we're just hours away for a new year. I'm here sitting in my room, thinking; thinking about how blessed that I've been this year. Our lord, Jesus Christ, has allowed me and family to live another year and I'm thankful. Perhaps 2014, was not my year for achieving what I thought I would have but I know that this upcoming 2015 will be. I might have been delaying it, so I blame myself but not allowing myself to succeed. I'm afraid, you see and I should not be; it's true what people say, the world is a scary place. I need to take a risk and go out there and show the world what I'm made of. Perhaps it may be scary at first but I know I will learn. 2014 has been great for me, allowing me to experience a lot of new things.

• La Raza's Winter Retreat in Chula Vista 
• My "24th" Birthday, my sister bought me tickets to see Prince Royce. 
• Got Tickets to iHeart Radio Fiesta Latina
• I got to see Ricky Martin, Daddy Yankee, Jesse y Joy and Prince Royce
• Went on a cruise to Ensenada with my friends
• Saw Taylor Swift on Jimmy Kimmel Live (Doesn't count cuz, I actually didn't see her but I was there.)

Wonderful memories that I will cherish. Even though that things didn't work out between Jesus, I'm grateful that he walked back into my life and being able to let him go. Now, I am free and happy to do what I want without carrying my past. 2014 chapter is closing in a couple of hours before I begin the year right and I hope that this year I can make the right decisions in both my personal and professional life. This afternoon, my sister and I walked to Ralph's that is approximately the other side of town and we walked we talked about 2014 and things were proud and the things were are ashamed of. Then I brought up the whole how today ends another book of our lives and how tomorrow starts a new one. For example. for me it would be Margarita's Life Volume XXVI and for my sister would be Nancy's Life Volume XX. 

I'm glad that the year is over but I'm also scared about what this upcoming year will bring. I'm terrified actually. I've spent all day thinking about new year's resolutions but it's harder than I thought. I hope by tomorrow I have a set clear of my goals. 

However, there is one thing that I do want to share about 2014 and I think it's important to focus on 2015. One whole year has passed since I graduated from CSULB and you know what happens when one doesn't do anything in that year, they lose themselves and that's what happen to me. I lost the sight of person who I was in college. I lost the engagement I had for my community, my passionate and determination to get things done. 2014, I've been blinded with useless ideas and "hobbies" that I forgot. In 2015, I will get her back and finally get where I want to be.

Bye 2014. I will miss you...

Margarita's Last Post of the Year, 2014


Signing off, Margarita H.

P.S. I'm moving to another blog next year.

Song of the Week

Blank Space- Taylor Swift

Nice to meet you

Where you been?

I could show you incredible things

Magic, madness, heaven, sin

Saw you there and I thought oh my god

Look at that face, you look like my next mistake

Love's a game, wanna play

New money, suit and tie

I can read you like a magazine

Ain't it funny rumors fly

And I know you heard about me

So hey, let's be friends

I'm dying to see how this one ends

Grab your passport and my hand

I could make the bad guys good for a weekend

So it's gonna be forever

Or it's gonna go down in flames

You can tell me when it's over

If the high was worth the pain

Got a long list of ex-lovers

They'll tell you I'm insane

Cause you know I love the players

And you love the game

Cause we're young and we're reckless

We'll take this way too far 

It'll leave you breathless

Or with a nasty scar

Got a long list of ex-lovers

They'll tell you I'm insane

But I got a blank space baby

And I'll write your name

Cherry lips

Crystal skies

I could show you incredible things

Stolen kisses, pretty lies

You're the king baby I'm your queen

Find out what you want

Be that girl for a month

But the worst is yet to come

Oh no

Screaming, crying, perfect storms

I could make all the tables turn

Rose garden filled with thorns

Keep you second guessing like oh my god

Who is she? I get drunk on jealousy

But you'll come back each time you leave

Cause darling I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream

So it's gonna be forever

Or it's gonna go down in flames

You can tell me when it's over

If the high was worth the pain

Got a long list of ex-lovers

They'll tell you I'm insane

Cause you know I love the players

And you love the game

Cause we're young and we're reckless

We'll take this way too far and leave you breathless

Or with a nasty scar

Got a long list of ex-lovers

They'll tell you I'm insane

But I got a blank space baby

And I'll write your name

Boys only want love if it's torture

Don't say I didn't say I didn't warn you

Boys only want love if it's torture

Don't say I didn't say I didn't warn you

So it's gonna be forever

Or it's gonna go down in flames

You can tell me when it's over

If the high was worth the pain

Got a long list of ex-lovers

They'll tell you I'm insane

Cause you know I love the players

And you love the game

Cause we're young and we're reckless

We'll take this way too far and leave you breathless

Or with a nasty scar

Got a long list of ex-lovers

They'll tell you I'm insane

But I got a blank space baby

And I'll write your name

Javier Garza

What was I thinking when I accepted his friend request? I wasn't and that's the problem. I often make rushing decisions without analyzing the consequences and later I'm face with those consequences. I should have known that his presence back in my life would cause me discomfort and for unresolved feelings to resurface, but I was to naive to see the red flags. 

Why do I keep putting myself into these situations? Maybe I enjoy making reckless mistakes, or I like drama in my life or because I'm desperately seeking for a guy's attention. Whatever the reason it may be, I'm still acting like an immature person who cannot let herself to be respected. I am bothered that I let anyone walked into my life and take over my life. Javier is no exception, I allowed his decisions to be my decisions. I was so blind by his personality and good looks to influence me to follow his lead rather than making my own decisions.  

This upcoming year, I've decided to start fresh and in order for me to that Javier cannot be in my life anymore. So, right before the new year begins I will un-friend on Facebook and erase anything related to him from my life. To be honest, it's going to hurt me more than him and I doubt he will even notice that I'm no longer there. In Javier's eyes, I was simply just another girl he could use and manipulate; and I doubt I'm not the only one. Just a click on un-friend and I will be good. 

Nonetheless, before the chapter with Javier Garza is over, I want to share with you all how I met him and he became a weight on my shoulder.  Please don't judge for that things I'm going to say; I was in a dark place in that time of my life. 

This all started because of a social media site called Myspace. When I was in high school, Facebook hadn't yet emerged as a social media site like how it is today, Myspace was the popular social media site included features choosing a profile song (I would change mines every week, lol), making you think about your friends (top 4, top 8 and even top 10 friends) and personalized our page with various themes. It was truly amazing. 

It was the year 2009 and I was 19, a sophomore in college, only and desperate that I was I turned to Myspace for comfort. One of the features of Myspace was the ability to browse for people, so one afternoon, I decided to sit down in front of my computer and so a complete search of guys around my area and that's how I found Javier. That same afternoon I added him as friend knowing that there was a change he was not going to accept. To my surprise hours later, he accepted my request and from there we started to message each other every so often until we exchanged numbers and talk almost everyday. We would talk for hours without worrying about school the next day. Then the day arrived when we decided it would be nice to meet each other.  On June 28 that same year we met at the South Gate movie theater, Edwards Theater by Garfield and Firestone. 

I was the first to arrive to the theater, my parents had driven me, knowing that I was meeting up with a friend (which I was not). 45 minutes later and there was no sign of him and realized he wasn't going to show up. So I asked if we could leave... but right before my dad turned on te car he had shown up. I had gotten off the car and greeted him. Javier was tall, like 5'7, brown-white skin wearing a light blue Aeropostale shirt with black skinny jeans. To be honest, I didn't find him attractive, I believe it was because he still had his baby face. I recalled my parents wanted to meet him and I rolled my eyes of the embarrassment 

 Our conversations were a bit quiet, however I do recall the first compliment gave me, "You don't look 19, you look like 16." I smiled. The movie we saw that night was Drag me to Hell. A sucky movie, I know but back then I was a scary cat so I was frighten throughout the movie and I thought he would hold me but he didn't. At the end of the night, we waited by the stairs for our parents to pick us up, because neither of us could drive, while we waited we looked at each other and smiled. 

I was not so sure why I liked him so much, he wasn't much of a talker. Who knows? 

Javier Garza is finally over... Or is it? 

#movingon #javiergarza  #finally #2009 #2014 

New Location

LYNWOOD, CA-   Today I report from the city of

Getting inspired

Lynwood in a little coffee shop called Starbucks.

This morning I woke up with full energy and  I couldn't let this energy go to waste. Just kidding that's not the reason that I'm here. Today I decided to do something different in my routine and due to certain circumstances I had to leave my home to fix some issues that I'm having. So, I took this like an excellent opportunity to come to Starbucks to enhance my writing skills. I always wanted to sit down in a coffee shop and study but unfortunately I never got the chance to do when I was in college. So, now I have the chance to do so except for the studying part. Instead of studying, I've decided to write, and so far I've been productive.

Every writer moves from location to location in hopes to find their inspiration for their writing and I am not the exception. Perhaps, I'm not a writer, per se but I do consider myself as writer in the making. Like a writer, just give me a cup of coffee and some music I'm ready to work. I've been here for almost two hours and I have been truly inspired by the people who walk in the shop. I actually feel like a writer, I have my laptop, along with my cup of coffee (that got cold) and my music. I might make this a weekly habit. The location is not the only thing new that I tried, I also decided to order something that I never tried. I ordered a Grande Caramel Macchiato, something that my sister suggested so took her word for it and I'm glad that I did. It was delicious.

One thing that I've noticed since my arrival to the shop is the people. It's interesting to see the variety of people who walk in the door. I noticed some walking in and out while others stay in and enjoy their drink with their friends.  However there is something interesting that I never expected to see. I don't know if you may know but Starbucks offers free Wi-fi at their coffee shop and what I've noticed is how people approach the shop only to use the service. In other words, not buying a drink but to use the wi-fi. I mean, literally standing by the door, can you make it more obvious? I've seen at least 5 people using the free service.


MH<3

Alexander Mora Venancio

Alexander Mora

This past Sunday the family of Alexander Mora, one of the 43 students who went missing on September 26 received the confirmation of his death. Nearly 2 months after the students were kidnapped by the police, people at the forensic department have identified pieces of human remains found in a local trash dump. The Mexican officials have identified him to be Alexander Mora Venancio. After months of tormented and distressed about his disappearance one family can finally begin to heal. While other parents still refused to believe that their children are dead, despite the fact that the people who were responsible of the killing had confessed to the crime. Many families are still in hopes that they children are still alive and will be found soon.

One boy can rest in peace, while the others are still missing, will there be hope in finding the others or will it be a lost cause?

#justice #42stillmissing #mexico #prayformexico 

Song of the Day

I Knew You Were Trouble- Taylor Swift

Once upon a time, a few mistakes ago
I was in your sights, you got me alone
You found me, you found me
You found me-e-e-e-e
I guess you didn't care and I guess I liked that
And when I fell hard, you took a step back
Without me, without me
Without me-e-e-e

And he's long gone
When he's next to me
And I realize, the blame is on me

'Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now, flew me to places I'd never been
Till you put me down
Oh I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now, flew me to places I'd never been
Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground

Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

No apologies, he'll never see you cry
Pretends he doesn't know that he's the reason why
You're drowning, you're drowning
You're drowning-ing-ing-ing-ing
And I heard you moved on from whispers on the street
A new notch in your belt is all I'll ever be
And now I see, I now I see
I now I see-e-e-e-e

He was long gone
When he met me
And I realize the joke is on me
Hey!

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now, flew me to places I'd never been
Till you put me down
Oh I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now, flew me to places I'd never been
Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground

Oh, Oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, Oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

When the saddest fear
Comes creeping in
That you never loved me... or her or anyone or anything
Yeah!

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now, flew me to places I'd never been
Till you put me down
Oh I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now, flew me to places I'd never been
Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground

Oh, Oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, Oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
Trouble, trouble, trouble
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
Trouble, trouble, trouble!

Bye November, Hello to December

Bye November, Hello December.  Another month passed us by and yet I have not found my path through life. I have slip an entire year with no leads to what direction should my life be headed but I'm blessed to have lived it.

December is not only about receiving gifts, waiting for the new year or spending time with our loved ones, but a time of waiting. Waiting for the birth of Jesus Christ. All year I have been blessed to have gained a relationship with God. Even though it's not a perfect relationship because there are still things to sort out but I have literally taken upon myself to gain his trust again. This month of December is a time of waiting for hope and peace. The birth of Jesus Christ is a very special day in the Catholic community, it's the rejoice in the world. I also think that his birth we wait for HOPE.

I know in the last couple of months have not been for families and communities around the world. War and consent violence in their countries and corruption in their own government. This is why this December I want pray for peace and for answers for these families and communities. We should not feared of something that is suppose to protect us. We need justice and peace in the communities of these people. #Ferguson #Mexico

December is the last chapter of 2014 and we should make it a special one.