A Day to Reflect

A walk in the park is all I need to think things through.

by Margarita H.

SOUTH GATE, CA-

Today I spent most of day walking with my sister at South Gate Park, located by Tweedy Blvd and Atlantic Blvd in the city of South Gate. As I walked through these paths throughout the park, I thought about a lot of things; things that have been on mind but too afraid to speak out. Finally today I was able to walk and reflect. I have been in denial for months and I'm too scared to move on with my life. As I listen to my music, I thought to myself, is this how my life is going to be like... just consistently postponing for better opportunities? I'm not unsure where my life is taking me at this point but I hope somewhere that I could help people. But anyhow, this walk in the park with my sister help me just to clear my thoughts and relax even in the under the heat.

Cannot Go Back

This past weekend I went out to celebrate my friend's Stephanie's Birthday at Pasadena along with other friends. I told myself that I was not going to consume any drinks but somehow my friends convinced me. I know I should be pressure or anything I just didn't want to be the party popper so I gave in only one glass of wine. Throughout the night I thought to myself, I can't go back to the girl who I used to be, those days in the club and drinking, ever since the party of 2011 I promised myself I was not going to given in that type of social events. Since then I've been managing myself a bit controllable when it comes to those types of social events. However, as I endure myself into those social situations I think about when I was that girl, crazy and wild, and YOLO was her motto and think how life was so easy then. Those times were different because I didn't have to worry about anything and life was just wild and free but times have changed. I have graduated college and now I have into think seriously about starting a new chapter of my life. The episode of Friday night is one that I don't want to repeat again, well not anytime soon anyways. I must confess that I did enjoy myself in that setting again but I wish  I would have handled it differently. I decided to write this post not the sake of how I'm thinking but also thinking about the foolish girl who I used to be. Guys. I think I have a bit matured regarding to guys, ever since the thing with my guy friends I haven't been putting myself out there. I guess that is because I just don't want to get hurt right now. I want to focus on getting myself settle and nothing else should matter. I've been out of school for months and I haven't found anything. The whole situation dating will come on it's own. I don't want to go back to my old self, I want to prove myself that I have change...

Peace.

Healthy Me

Yesterday, I decided to make a change in how I live my life, in the last couple of months I have been stuck at the house, literally I would just sit in front of the computer or watching TV eating what I saw lying around. It's sad to say that I have gain 35 pounds in the last few months. I'm not proud of myself, I only blame myself but I have not done anything in my life. But that's about to change, I know it's going to be a big change and it's not going to be easy but I'm willing to give it all to change. I cannot keep living like this especially if I don't feel good about myself. I know I  could do this, I just need to keep myself motivated and don't quit.

Wish me luck.

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Mexico is Out!

La Seleccion Mexicana 2014

Last Sunday, (June 29), Mexico played their last game against Netherlands, and personally I thought they had no chance in winning but I had faith they would change the game around and they did. I followed each minute of the 90 minutes which are they allowed to play and I got to say they played well, they gave it their all but it wasn't enough. When Mexico scored the first goal I screamed from my lungs, I felt my heart pumping so fast and even my dog Bobby was howling at the television, the joy I felt made me proud of my boys. In the last 10 minutes of the game I felt nervous because Mexico was losing control which made the score tied with a penalty kick. (**It was not a penalty) Few minutes later the Netherlands scored another goal assist of a corner kick. But hey, Mexico made it to the World Cup and made me proud. Until next time... 

May Day: Walk for Dreamers Rally CSULB

It was May Day at CSULB. Several organizations from campus such as Students for Quality Education (SQE), Future Underrepresented Educated Leaders (FUEL), La Raza Student Association, and Chican@/o Latin@/o Studies Student Association worked together to create a peaceful rally against CSULB administration for a Dream Resource Center for AB540 and undocumented students.
The students, community members as well as supporters met at the Speakers Platform (Front of the Bookstore) at noon. In the rally, there were several students who gave their testimonials as  undocumented students and why they are need of a dream center. After the students led a march to Brotman Hall where they voiced out their support for a Dream Resource Center on campus. The voices of the students to demand a Dream Resource Center for AB540 and undocumented students became so overwhelming for the administration, that they had to shut down the administration building itself with police surrounding the entrances, not letting a single student into the building.

Here is a clip of the rally:



The rally did become overwhelming to find out if the administration would listen to the students demands; students stood outside screaming and yelling in hopes they would listen and pay attention to their demands. I'm not sure what the end result came out at the end of the day but I'm sure this is the not their last attempt to get their dream center.

 

Todo en la vida si se puede!!!!

Trying something different

For the last couple of days I have been consistently writing on a different blog that I created, its called,  When Everything Changed. The reason that I decided to create a new blog is that I wanted to try something different, I wanted to tell one of my short stories in form of a blog. This is giving me the opportunity to rewrite the story itself, give it more detail in the characters, setting and in the plot. Honestly, it has been a difficult journey because writing is not simple, it takes a lot of thought and a lot of revision. Before I created the new blog, I had a difficult time in blogging in my usual blog; no matter how much I spent staring the blank page I would not write anything. So one day, my friends asked me when I was going to post again and that's when it hit me, my short stories could work and it has. I try to post everyday, but sometimes I'm too tired or lack of inspiration to finish it, so I leave it for the following morning. I'm glad that I decided to try something new for a change, I don't care if people don't read it, it would be great but not necessary. I write for me and if people want to read it, well I have no problem with that. Well let's see how far I could take this story too. Wish me the best.

When Everything Changed <==== Check it out.

Losing my touch?

For the last few days I have been wanting to write another blog post but I just don't know how to start. I don't know why I'm finding a difficulty in writing if writing has been my secure blanket for years and now I'm lucky if I'm able to get a sentence out. I suppose that I might be losing my touch and it sucks because writing has always been a way for me to express what I hold within. What am I suppose to do if I do indeed lose this talent? Perhaps I may not had recruited a lot of readers but I don't write for readers but for myself. For each blog post, I let out steam, I let out frustration, I let out feelings that kill me. People don't understand what one goes through in life, as an individual we face our problems, our fears, and sadness. There are people who are good at hiding these feelings while others are sensible, fragile human beings like me that can't hide. Hold on, that's a lie, I do hide, I hide between each word, in each comma and each letter. How can I lose my touch? I can not if I do, who will I be then? Just a 24- year old Latina girl, who has a college degree, jobless, still lives with her parents. I can't afford to lose this talent, writing defines who I am. I may not be great in grammar but who said in order to write we must be good at it. I'm not a professional so grammar does not apply to me, writing is a hobby and grammar does not apply. I have to apply myself each day if I want to become a daily blogger. I need inspiration to write I think that's my problem. Since I graduated from Long Beach, there has been a lack of inspiration, what inspiration, I mean drama. In a way I missed it because with it I'm able to write about it but at the same time I'm glad that I don't have deal with anything. I think I finally found peace, not only with the people who I cared about but also within myself. Letting go is hard. I guess at the end of the day, I'm not really losing my touch I just need to apply myself harder to write about more important things other than myself.